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If only I could turn back time.Musicians are just a league of their own.

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Glad to know that he has started a new chapter of life.Glad to know he's starting it with someone he knows he can spend his life with.Glad to know that I am free from the bondage of the past.Glad to know that we are facing life happily in our own ways.Be blessed, n God will be your witness through thick and thin.Love is meant to be forever, with God being 1st within.

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Sometimes things comes on you hard. It doesn't mean when you're 25 you've known it all. Not even when you're 45 or 65. You learn new things everyday. You will be surprise of the things that you have not known of throughout your life.You can never act that you know it all, or know everything. It doesn't mean that if you're good in one thing, you are good in another. Yes, your skills are to be

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I was getting ready for a flight this morning, checking in only to find out that my recency for the fleet has expired as of today. Therefore, I called the Control Center to inquire about the matter.Reason why this wasn't checked earlier? Webpage was down and I was overseas, I couldn't check on anything.Me: Hi, I'm supposed to be going for a flight today, however I realised that my recency has

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Gee, I've just celebrated my 24th birthday last month, n it's January '10 already??Well, technically, i'm still a year younger, n happier, la la la la =)Ok, let's take a look back to what happened to me in 2009...........I started the year with a great desire to forget about the painful past, but..hmm, it took me about half a year before I finally did it! Notice how long I've not been updating my

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Sometimes I look back n wonder how blinded I was n how much sh*t I've gone thru to finally understand, realise n wake up..hah, that's something to laugh at.Thinking back, it ain't too bad afterall..at least I had a chance to grow up n be more mature from being a girl to a lady. Like the saying goes, "what doesn't kill you, will only make you stronger".Enough of those lies I made myself to believe

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The truth is always there. It is always right at your face, but you just chose to brush aside, unwilling to face the fact. You just choose to lie to yourself, still clinging on to that slightest hope, the faintest light which you can barely see.It's all gonna be good. Things will be recovered like it was before. But then when things didn't go my way, I get very depressed and dissapointed. At the

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Have we ever wondered?We often put the blame on someone, somebody or something when bad things happen to our lives. We give ourselves excuses when things doesn't go our way. We try to make the world sound imperfect n the people that's involved to be."It all happens and it's all their fault. What wrong have I done? What did I do to deserve all of this?"Sounds familiar? Yeah, it happens to me too.

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I remember the 1st day where you brought me to Sigi's..You knew my favourite song, n you have it on in your car when you arrived at my place; "Home". You gave me a bouquet of flowers n you brought us to dinner. It was the sweetest day of my life.I thanked the Lord so much for taking away the broken past and let the best thing that could've ever happened to me. It was the best time of my life. I

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Is it true that even though the door is closed, God will still leave you a window opened for you?Man will always have their lowest n highhest points throughout their life's journey. There is always a season for the positive and negative to occur in one's life, and sometimes it involves the people around you for the things that you've done and not bearing the responsibilty towards your own

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My first ever encounter with a celebrity that I'd admire n appreciate most ever since his first album, Craig David! Craig's n the move-----Hot Stuff n All The Way, smokiing Hot! a lil' glimpe of Fill Me In.. n Walking Away...enjoy peeps ;)

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It was plain, pure fun back in KL =)I was there to give a surprise to Simon and pounced on him backstage (kiddin, =P). OK, I was there to support him for at least once when i had the chance to go back there, at the same time meeting up with Aubrey, Marion, Renee, Hendra n all those awesome people! Man I really miss those days where I get to work with all these celebas, musicians n backstage

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The clock ticked 6.24pm on a Standby day. I was yet to be called up for flight, and so I decided to do something to overcome the boredom. I tried filling in bits of words here and there for a song I wrote for a special little girl of a special couple that made a difference in my life."Hey, baby Adara is 3 months old now, you must write a song for her, ok?" Victor suddenly popped that question out

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And so we met.My heart was thumping all the while on my way to where we're suppose to meet; at the MRT station. I knew he could be there somewhere. I was more than excited to see him again after such a long time. I'd prepared myself for this already, or so I thought.I wanted to look my best. I'd never wanted to be shabby in front of him, more so after we've broken up. It was suppose to be a time

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He told me the other day we could meet up. I was indeed happy. We have not met for such a long time. We chat online, for only once in a while. But I figured he'd already put it at the back of his head."Are we still friends?" He asked me the other day. I can only answer a "yes". It seemed I was left with no other answers to come up with. I looked forward to meet him up before I leave for work for

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This is a beautiful song I came across when I was 'hunting' for songs online;There was a time when I used to run away.Anytime I started to fallCause love's never been verykind to me,no babyNot very kind at allUntil youYou stole my heart awaySomehow you helped restore my faithAnd something I thought wasn't for meNow comes so easilyBecause I love youYou're the flame that sets my soul on fireThat

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It's 2009, and I've got a whole bunch of people to thank for '08!I like to thank.....My Lord n Saviour Jesus Christ for loving me so much everytime and everywhere. He saw me through my ups n downs and never left me but showering me with blessings throughout. Thank you, my Dearest Father in Heaven =) .Mom n Dad for supporting me through all my decisions and choices in life. Thank you for being

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The "Klebsiella" bacteria family's been making themselves at home in my right nostril for at least a year!They've been making themselves at home with lots and lots of babies there already. Thank God I met Dr. Lee, and he said it's time for them to move. I can't believe I generously let them accompany me for such a long time. Goodbye guys, I won't miss you at all! Don't come back!Doc gave me a

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It's now the 3rd day of year 2009.Much has been done. Much has been experienced. The good and the bads happened all in the 365 days of 2008.OIAM 2 ended in February. That marked the end of my involvement in one of the country's most acclaimed talent competition and the local music industry, and the beginning of a whole new life in a whole new place- Singapore.February also marked the end of a

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I've always pictured Paris in my mind as one of the most romantic places everyone wants to go to..and finally I had a taste of it. Indeed, it is soo much better than what I imagined.I've only heard about Notredame from the movie The Hunchback of Notredame. Pardon me for my shallowness because I'm not into ancient churches and architecture, but at least I had the chance to see the real thing and

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Lone Pine, Brisbane- Home to the drunken koalas!n to a bunch of sheep that are always forced to run around the field just to entertain heartless human like us...this is the sheepdog that does all the hard work to impress us..They may look harmless, but you wouldn't wanna come close to a dingo like this..I didn't know we can get soo up, close n personal to this extend!And there you have it, Lone

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It ain't easy to be alone sometimes...Am being literally "alone" in a foreign place for 5 months already now, and it still feels like a foreign place to me. There's nowhere else like home, seriously.I felt distant at times in a foreign station, being all alone again literally. I wish mom n dad was here with me..I wish I can be there with my family, at least I felt belonged. I remember how much I

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I've always have this thought about life- to make it more interesting or just to follow what everyone does...what makes more sense actually..I desire to be someone Different. Someone who stands out from the others. Someone who makes a difference to the people around me. I want to paint my life with all the different interesting colours and make it more vibrant~OK...that's enough for my

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An off day!It's always the day that I'm looking forward too after a flight..I usually liked hanging around overseas but recently (after having to suffer from bad indigestion and fever a few times onboard), I think I rather be at home then. It feels so much better being at HOME; I need some rest....Fortunately, it's not another day rotting at home..at least not the whole day =).I thought Josh

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I don't mind going back to San Francisco again! I mean, how can anyone deny the sophisticated aura and ambience of the city?Being there is like being in dreamland..or at least, my dreamland; it's like being in the movies! Imagine, you're now at the streets where Arnold, Brad and Tom once had their scripts acted out! For the guys, it's might be the coolest thing, But for the girls, it's

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I can only not start with anything else but to thank My Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ. He listened to me when I was crying foully, when I was down n depresed, n He heard the desires of my heart, and He healed me.= I'm now a renewed person. He was the only eyes to see me going through all the agony and pain, and He knows better than anyone else. He picked me up when I fell. I didn't see His

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My first time in Adelaide~ Believe this..we had;1) o hours of sleep since evening the day before.2) 0 hours of rest- literally "walking" to Adelaide.3) 1 full day to tour around n cruise the streetsReporting time was 10 am the next day. Touchdown time was 9am.We went straight out to the nearest shopping street- Rundell St. We wasted 40 mins loolking for the right direction, but fortunately was

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~Batch 980 is history~We're taking up our 1st step to independence in our career not as a batch anymore. Of course the bittersweet memories are memorable and remembered, but the next few moments of the new beginning is even more worth remembering..1st Solo- Bangkok turn- ChallengingIt was my 1st, yes my 1st! I wonder if they got my message across during the briefing...I said "It was my 1st TIME

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Seeing him moving on isn't easy. I can't bear to go through the cycle all over again, as if the first time wasn't tough enough to get by. I hate it. And now I've to go through all of this again. I know I was forcing myself to let things go and see it in a different way altogether, but deep down inside, it's not as easy.I hate the fact that there's this someone comes along, or so to speak had been

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I wish the English language could be written in a simpler, sophisticated yet sincere way to express the way I am feeling, the way the Chinese language was designed to express their meanings in one single character of each ideogram.. 昨晚我们又相见。。我又再伤心了，我觉得很可息因为我失去了一个心中里面最真贵的东西， 一个我失去了又永远都不再会回来到我身边的人。I thought it was over. Yes it is, but somehow the words still hurt me. It still hurts. I wish I could

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We had a great time last Friday, this time with more of the 980s.It was a so-called last gathering we're gonna have for our batch, coz we're soon graduating and everybody's going solo, so we decided to at least come for the last time. Desiree was always as usual, ditching everyone at the last minute, and Serene almost didn't make it because of her unfortunate "encounter" ; apparently she kicked

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I looked back into the past. I see myself living my dream and passion...And now I looked at friends who persisted from day one together with me. They're halfway to their dream. They've got their passion in place and their living it; living with Music.This passion in us is something where money can't replace and a relationship that just couldn't rob away from, let alone other things in life. It is

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Busy Busy Busy!I've been darn busy the past few months...gawsshh. Somehow I felt I'm going back to school again..I've passed my 1st month in Cabin crew Foundation School! Oh but believe me, I'm looking very forward to every day at work, why? Well, that's obviuos, coz i'm going for my passion ;) .So folks, do what ya gotta do and what you want to do. Don't let the world pull you down and be

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Phew...what a long 2 weeks!Imagine, you're in a foreign place trying to cope up and get use to the life here, and the company's rushing us thru so many documents processing, visa application, uniform fitting and ended up running here and there..Nonetheless..I did manage to get to hang out with our batch buds and manage to try some new stuff in SG.. The one on the right are some of my fellow

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The end of something of the past, and a beginning of a whole new future altogether.Oh believe me, the first few days being alone here with no close relatives here is definitely a tough time to go through. What more when the person who thought you can rely on, and had always been the closest had suddenly become a stranger to you, where his heart has grown cold, n never could grow warm again no

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Finally I get to get my hands on my blog! It's been 1 whole week + 2 days of tiredness n Internet-less days in this new foreign place...Mon, 16th July, 10.25am was my flight, SQ 191 to SG.Some of my faithful, loving n caring buddies went all the way to the airport to send me away. They knew, it wasn't a normal holiday trip for me, but a trip where I'm heading towards a new beginning of a new job

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I wonder what's wrong with me...I'm feeling lonely already right now. The fact that I've to leave all my friends and close ones makes me feel so alone like a stranger in a new place. Now I really understand how it feels to leave my home and going to a new place.Simon's told me about how he feels for his girlfriend and how he misses her a lot. And I'm really glad for him that he has so much love

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It's 2 days and counting...Boy I can't wait! haha.Gee, suddenly time seemed so precious. I couldn't get enough of staying back here. I know I'm gonna miss my buddies and the place where I spent my study n youth years altogether. I'm gonna miss the time singing together with my best buds. This place was where I grew in my passion in music. It was where I established my status in singing.It was

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Yeah I know, I've always been looking forward to this..I've always wanted to start a new life and future..But deep down right now, I'm feeling a lil' sad....I know I'm gonna be missing home again, that's for sure. Mom n Dad's come to a good'ol age, and I'm leaving them once again. I can see them going all out for all of us; their children and their love towards us. I can't barely see them not

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I'm having mixed feelings right now..a lil' excited and a lil' sad. I'm excited because I'm heading to a new place to face a new challenge, and a sad because I'm gonna miss home and friends. I'm not gonna be able to be back so often again, and it's a whole new world I've to face out there, all alone...Well, I'm blessed enough because God's blessed me with some friends and relatives there that

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It's more than 2 months now..And I could still manage to come back to square one. How can I be so easily shaken? How can I be so easily affected? I still can't be alone..Over the times, I started to realise I've changed to become an impatient and emotional person. I started to react irrationally at times when emotions take place. Maybe because I've moved far away from God, and I refused to listen

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I'm gonna leave my home, my 2nd home and my country soon..I'm gonna leave to somewhere new and foreign to me. I'm gonna be living all by myself, becoming independent for real now. I'm gonna start a new life altogther soon..and it's a new beginning of a new future.This is gonna sound similar..I'm gonna miss my homes, but no so much for my country =P. My home is where my parents are, and nothing

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I thought I’d only fall in love with one, and the only one. Afterall, I’ve been in love for all these years. But now, never could I imagine I could fall for another one. I started to find the existing love beginning to fade away, and it started to get a little boring. I knew my love has changed. So long to the old one. I’m gonna start loving you from now onwards and forget about the past, my new

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It’s been some time since the last entry. As much as I wanted to get it updated, I was kinda restricted from it coz there was no chance for me to go online. Thus, the wide time gap in between the last and the latest entries. May 17 marks a special day for this couple.....I was back in Penang to attend a lovely couple’s wedding; Sharon and Kevin. I’ve known them ever since they were newly going

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As usual.. Always can’t get enough sleep for some reason.. I gotta do something to the bed!!!Saturday and Sunday was a time of catching up with lotsa good’ol and new friends…We went to visit Mike at the motorcross competition at Lembah Tempurung on Saturday. I almost forgotten about it until he reminded me the night before. Luckily we managed to get there on time the next day, and both Willy and

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That I may grow to be stronger, tougher and wiser. I admit I was childish. I was innocent and naive. I was too straight forward to think that things happen the way they seem and look to be. I might still have the same traits, but from this moment on, it has changed my perspective towards this and many other aspects in life.I will not be so emotional anymore. I must stand up again. It’s not the

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They say a song would be so much more meaningful if it’s written with our hearts, through the real experience that our soul has gone through. All of what the composer has gone through and everything that’s hidden in the heart will be expressed out through the particular song; something that verbal words alone are not enough to express.For me, this is a song that marks a significant moment in

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Again…I tried very hard to get over it, to the point where I almost threw everything behind already. But why is it all coming back to me again?I tried very hard to be strong. I tried very hard to put things behind. I was strong at one point of time. But since when did I become so vulnerable again? Seeing somebody you love doesn’t want you back is the utmost saddest thing at this very moment.

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Dan went back to SG yesterday. But this time I didn’t get to see him. I felt very awkward, being the fact that I wasn’t able to meet him when he’s back after not meeting him for so long, but I guess he needs time on his own. I hope he enjoyed his trip home so far..It’s the first day of the week again. I’m supposed to be at work today but I had a very bad sore eye during the weekend, so Dad asked

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I'm supposedly back in Ipoh already by now. Thank God I wasn't.While I was busy handling my already-been infected-by-virus laptop, there came a call from an anonymous number which turned out to be a call from the clinic. To my surprise and frustration, the nurse told me they left out a blood test for my medical check up and I need to go back for it. Gosh, fortunately I'm still in Penang, if not

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It's almost about a month without Dan now....Why am I not feeling happier...Everyday I would wake up feeling empty inside, as if a part of me is missing.Well, that's what he thought, that I'll be happier..maybe he has to find his excuse to make this a valid reason I guess. There are always 101 reasons to love somebody, and also 101 reasons to not love somebody. I wonder what is it so happy about

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-Learning and Refining in Cooking!- This.....is what I made over the weekend with Camilia. Spaghetti ala Chinese style! hahaha. We had this made in 30 minutes and everyone who tried can't help but commended on it..hehe, not too bad for an amateur ey? ;)I personally felt that it was really different from the many ones that I've tasted (even Dan's =p). I felt it was actually extra addictive.

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It's supposedly my last day in Penang before heading back to my home sweet home. I hope I can spend more time with Mom n Dad before I leave to SG...The doctor told me on Wednesday my medical report will be ready by next Monday. Boy, I can't wait for the results to be sent for the employment pass approval and I heard it will take about 2-3 weeks. Let's hope it'll be done as soon as possible. I've

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arrrghhh....starting to think too much again..I really still can't be alone for the time being. It's so hard! So many things could come and cloud my mind everytime I'm alone. Sigh....Been trying to keep myself busy and been looking for company so I don't have to be at home alone..but I still have to be back at home for the nights..and there you go..the thoughts come back and I will wake up very

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Came back to Penang for a medical check up, at the same time had a little time to catch up with my buddies.It's really great to be able to catch up with them, especially when i'm alone back here. It's actually been quite tiring for these few weeks coz I've been travelling almost every weekend, and now I'm gonna be here till the weekend. I wanted to stay till next week, but then I know I'm gonna

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It's my 3rd day now in KL...I took the 7pm bus straight after work and reached KL at about 10pm. Although I didn't have a good nite sleep before, I couldn't seem to rest my eyes. My mind was wondering about so many things that I'm going to face in the near future if all things go well; I'd have to move to a new place, I'll be all alone again, and I've to leave my family again. This time, I'm

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“~At the verge of a broken heart is just emotions, taking me over, caught up in sorrow lost in my soul, but if you don’t come back, come home to me darling~”Women- they are always more emotional than men. They react according to feelings before thinking rationally. Before they could think properly, their tears and emotions take over. They are sensitive human beings. They tend to think too much

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Not enough sleep today…. =SI woke up in the middle of the night feeling so warm with so many mosquito bites today…darn! I havent been having enough sleep for quite some time already and this makes it worst. Sigh…steamingly steam….All rite, SAND’s album is on it’s way to Taiwan! These guys from Church of Praise, Ipoh are actually on a mission trip to Taiwan for 10 days on 29th April. I bet things

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I thought the problem in my nostrils was getting better. There’s still phlegm though with pain on the right cheek. I hope I’ll be ok before it gets worst and I have to look for the doctor.My weekend started off with a good news. I’ve received an update where we’ve always expected and finally it’s really happening! SAND’s music is going to be making its way to Taiwan! Aunty Lucy always shared with

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I gotta go to the hospital...My nostrils have been giving me problems lately. Not that I'm having flu or sinus which is causing the problems, but green, thick phlegm has been continuously flowing from my nostrils to my throat, that I have to spit them out continuously. At times, my right cheek will be in pain. I ignored it thinking it was because of heatiness that caused this pain. This has been

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It’s the 3rd day back in Ipoh….As usual, been starting work with Dad and as expected, I’ve been working on things already. Well, at least I felt that I’m helping him right now and he feels happier. I’m glad I could help Dad. Unlike back in Penang, I don’t feel so lonely now, coz everywhere I go I’ll be with Dad and at night, everyone is at home. I feel more belonged to now, and company does help

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1st day, really settling down in Ipoh after 5 years…I went with dad to the office to help out today. It seems there’s nothing much to do, being my 1st day at work. Dad hasn’t the time to coach me on stuffs, and so I just gotta get use to the environment here. It seems there’s much help needed at the production side, but it would nullify my purpose for being here. Furthermore, I could only be

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Sometimes I feel I'm such a hypocrite..Don't just say it, do it! Bring yourself back together and be strong! Do not be shaken so easily...You'll be destroying yourself only, look forward to a new life, and do not think about the past anymore..The past is the past, don't ponder on it anymore, coz it wouldn't do any good.Please, don't make things worse anymore, ok girl? God is there to lead the way

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It's my last day in Penang..I'm gonna miss this place..In fact I'm starting to miss this place already. My 2nd home, where I face and went through the transition period of my life..from being a teenager, to a young adult.Gee..how i wish I'm still studying. That was the time when everybody enjoys school days and never had to worry so much about the future because our first priority was to pass our

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Yeah..yeah..i've awakened already.Heard it, confirmed, reaffirmed again...I just have to get it into my hard head.C'mon..it's clear now. He just don't have enough love for you, don't you get it?? He's just not sure that he'll ever find someone better than you..Yeah, there's not enough love..Oh well, since this is what he's decided, can I do anything bout it? I just have to live with it.Love is

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Phew..the 1st day is over. Sigh, how come it seems days are so hard to pass by now? I wonder when will be the time when I don't have to take notice of the time and days that passed by and live happily. Going through this whole process again is not easy. I wonder how long it will take this time...I know tears and heartaches will accompany these days again..Well, I strongly believe if love is true,

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It's been like any other day, time to finalise my things in Penang and move back to my hometown for good. Let me try to recall back some good'ol memories residing in Penang. It's been 5 years, and it seemed like time passes by in a blink of an eye. I remember the first time when I step my foot into this small, 'compact' (I always like to use this word on this island) Penang, the last thing I

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God knows how long it has been..it's been saddening, frustrating, dissapointing days that I didn't even bother to take notice of.It's all the end. It's the end. I failed. I failed O'God. But I still love You. I learn how to love You more, and more. This is a great lesson. Thank You for being wiv me, teaching me each and everyday, where I seemed to have ignored.It's the best lesson that I ever had

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I did. I did everything I could..Out of love. Sometimes I just ask myself, how could I manage to get myself into so much love? How did I fell in love so deeply that I could put myself into such position?I've been asking myself in and out- were the things that I've done were so wrong that they actually got his heart out of it? Are my gestures, attitudes, character and behaviour are so wrong, that

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This few days, my days have been gloomy. In fact it's dark, and it shows every signs of rain. I realised the hard truth about our relationship. The saddest thing is, it's been happening for so long, but I didn't learn to realise it.Now he tells me that his feelings are different already..am I too late to make a change? Or is it he just didn't see me already realising it and starting to make a

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What is a relationship without equal feelings for each other?It always takes 2 to tango. Why am I so blind that I thought all this while, his feelings for me is always the same? N hoping to make things work? Lotsa things that was revealed over this period of time. I don't believe what I feel, that's why I needed to find out. Yes, he doesn't love me like I love him.Perhaps whatever I said, I do or

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After a long week, it's time for Grandma and Uncle Theen start working and get back to Rawang. They just left with Aunt Maggie and Steve back to Ipoh, and will be around to settle their matters before heading back. I'll be meeting them soon by this Wednesday :). Had a good time spending the week with them, it's good to always have visitors at home.It's time for me to get back to KL for the last,

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The dilemma goes on and on. It seems to be a never ending situation. I always asked myself, how come I can do it, but not him? Well, come to the point where I realised things can be just very unfair. No whys, no buts, it's just unfair. I cannot force happiness, if that happiness is just not there.It comes to a point where the physical part doesn't matters, and it's just the way we choose our

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The day before was Valentine's Day, and it was like any other day for me. Oh well, of course there's like something missing, but then I have to learn how to adapt to it..Had a conversation with Dan, and I understand that his concerns towards the future and all. I don't know whether it's his future or ours, but then he once told me that he couldn't see any future in the both of us already. Because

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Dan went online later than before yesterday nite. I was anxious and worried so I asked. He told me that he went out with a friend for dinner and came back a little late. Dinner, alone with her? =SI thought he told me not to do things like that, but he did it himself, which I really am not satisfied with his behaviour. Besides, knowing the history of her, I don't really like the feeling of this

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Sek bao bao! Grandma's in Penang and she cooks almost every meal for us. Hou hou sik ah! She'll be cooking Kai Si Hor Fun tomorrow, i'm gonna be learning from her..(hope to cook for Dan bebe one day :)) heheheI had a very bad day yesterday, coz the groaning stomach pain was the worst that I could barely stand or walk. The pain wasn't any better even until I lied in bed. There I was, groaning like

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The pain in my stomach since first day of CNY had gone from bad to worst. The aggrevating pain woke me up from bed like the day before. And I thought everrything will be fine today since I had a jab from the hospital the nite before.Oh, how I wish Dan is here to accompany me. And I couldn't control my tears again. It happens everytime when I am alone, on bed. Only I know that I can miss him so

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Dan's gone to Singapore today..for good.He left this noon at 2.10pm; I sent him off at the airport. For some reasons, we had a lil' argument, and for all times, it has to be at the last minutes before he left. It wasn't my intention to kick a big fuss out of little things- I just wanted to remind him that i'm still here, and I'll stand with him till the very last minute.I wanted him to make me

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Things have not improved a bit, not that i sensed of, but we're still determined to make a change. To hang on, and to make a change for the better. Many times we've wanted to call it off, but we just couldn't do it.I'm hopeful things would be better before everything's too late to make a difference. When we're miles apart, and it's even hard to communicate. I hope things will just get better. God

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What happens when 2 very different people gets together? It's easy, our thoughts and opinions clash, we see so many imperfections in each other until the good side becomes so insignificant.He wants the person to improve and change, and she will be thinking why is he being so mindful of small little things like that. Everyone's not perfect. And we have to learn to accept each others imperfections

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